Update

This entry has also been in 'Draft' mode since June 26, 2012.  It is in response to this entry.

"Okay, so nothing happened on May 27, 2012.  LOL.  I don't even remember anything significant that happened that day.  So all is well...

Except that I am currently in the hospital.  I am in the "Family Room" at the University of Alberta Hospital using the computer and I only have 20 minutes left on my "walk".  It really sucks.  I've been here for 2 weeks now.  I was admitted on Tues. July 12 and I really don't remember much about that day, or even the first week that I was here.  I just remember that I was hallucinating and was very paranoid.  I seriously thought I was in the Matrix, and I was like Neo, the Chosen One.  I kept having deja-vus / glitches and I felt like I had to figure out who Morpheus was, though in a way I was also Morpheus.  I remember faces morphing in and out of my view, and seeing what looked like ghosts or spirits (like the movie Ghost with Demi Moore and Patrick Swayze).  I remember taking my contacts out because they were bothering me, and I believed that it was meant to be so that I can see people's auras.  In fact, as I gave my eyes the time to heal a little, I believed that I had developed somewhat of a sixth sense, and that I had this gift to share with the world."

First Entry - Ah!

This entry has been in 'Draft' mode since June 2012, and I am just now finally posting it because I've decided I want to try this again.  I really do need an outlet, a diary of sorts, where I can... THINK... freely... and not be afraid of what I have to say:

"I've always been shy, so this is a HUGE step for me in regards to 'speaking up/out'.  I can't believe someone just might actually read this.  But I'm glad, because I feel like I need to speak with someone... or, at least, FEEL like I'm speaking to someone.  I'm always talking to myself in my mind (maybe that's why I went crazy! :p)  I don't even care if you care or not, because I just want to know that I'm taking the next step in expressing myself.  I've always felt hindered or stumped when it came to it. I could never say what I really wanted to say.  Especially to my parents... *shudder*...

Now, so far it's taken me about half an hour to write -- that's how scattered my thoughts are! I keep changing things around, deleting, rewriting, rewording... So I hope this blogging will also help me become a better writer.... help my thoughts flow freely...

I actually did start writing down my thoughts, in various places, i.e. journals, text files on my laptop, and memos on my phone... (again, see how scattered and random that is?) but the thing is, I found myself repeating a lot of things, going in circles with my thoughts (because a lot of what I think actually tie-in together)... and that's okay because, ultimately, I want to be able to present my ideas/philosophies to you and see what you think!"